luv is a tactical game. :D

*wink! wink!* ;) aku cam nak gelak pun ade tgk hamster aku kat sebelah ni.. bg kuaci xputus2 die mkn.. mane la tak dem0k~ silap2 blh meletop pwot tu.. haishhhh.. !-_-

owh, bekenaan dgn title.. well, it is a tactical game cz u hv to know how to tackle ur opponent.. bg aku camtu la.. tak tawla btol ke tak.. tapi yg aku taw, menda2 ni mmg sgt leceh.. commitment tu sniri sgt leceh.. tapi kalo tak berani nak harung, takkan nak hidup sorg2 plak kan.. well, no pain no gain~~ :D

so after all and such, setelah membuat survey plus meminta pendapat org ramai, makanya telah sy menetapkan bahawa esok akan bermulanya perang dingin.. woooohooo~ mesti ade snow2 kan? btw, da nak winter ke? yela, bukan ape.. since bumi ni da menghadapi global warming, kalo aku isytihar perang dingin, kurang2 dingin la sket bumi ni~~ :P

hmmm.. tapi otak serabut gak nak menyudahkan esaimen yg melambak ni.. dgn presentation nye, test(is) nye, ngan submission of esaimens lg.. mmg ah blh meninggey.. da la lagi +-3minggu je lagi tinggal nak final.. hadoi..

otak: tlg la fokus.
minda+fikiran: tlg kembali ke tmpt asal.. jgn asek nak merayau je..
hati: tlg duk diam2. tetap sket pendirian tu..
fokus: meh sini nak tambat.. nanti ilang lagi..

!-_-

wake me up when september ends.

pls.. do wake me up when september ends.. sangat serabut, sangat tak tenteram, sangat marah, sangat bengang, sangat tak sabar dan semuanya sangatlah sangat.. *sigh* !-_- aku tau mmg sangat tak elok kalau asek mengeluh.. tapi tu je yg aku mampu nak buat buat masa ni.. he said he need his own time.. so i'm trying to give his own space to breathe.. tapi ni la yg jadi.. aku yg cam kucar kacir hidup.. maybe i should try to get a new hobby instead.. how to distract myself? pls help me cast my mind away from him~ pls!!! pretty pls~~~ :'( boleh tak sape2 tlg ajar cane nak hilangkan penyakit angau ni? serabut je menda2 cani.. *syuhh syyyuuhhhhhh!! tlg pegi!!* nape la die tak rase ape yg aku rase? susah kan jadi pompuan ni? emo lebih, perasaan pon nak lebih.. i think i'd better stop now before maken byk menda yg aku merapu tak tentu pasal.. sekian, selamat malam. :'(

mencabar atau tercabar?

title nak gempak je kan? ape ingat title buku/novel je ke blh gempak2? i want to have a cool title too~ :D huhu~ well, not much dat i could write right now.. tapi tiba2 ada sesuatu yg melintas di kotak fikiran.. "hidup ni sgt mencabar" but act, i'm not sure whether d life is really challenging or me who d one that challenged myself in my own life.. hmmm.. ayat tunggang tebalik kan? nak wat cane.. suka cakap tapii xpandai susun ayat.. jadi la cam aku ni.. haru biru (mungkin jugak haru hijau atau haru merah.. who knows) hidup ni.. *sigh*

tak kesah la.. pape pon i'm trying to enjoy d life that i'm living.. sounds lame aite? but dat's what i'm trying to do.. but i guess i'm doing things without thinking much.. or maybe i'll turn my life into sumkinda hell again? hmmmm.. *thinking+wondering*

bukannya aku tak boleh pk sniri.. silapnye jika anda pk sy ni sgt dependent. bila keadaan terdesak, aku blh jd berdikari.. cuma selama aku hidup kat atas muka bumi ni, aku terlalu berfikir yg aku sgt memerlukan org di sisi aku.. aku tak blh, tak cuba dan tak pernah nak cuba untuk hidup sendiri.. yela.. nanti aku nak cakap ngan sape.. aku ni da la suke pokpekpokpek.. nanti kalo duk sorg2, aku pokpekpokpek sorg2, xke org kate aku gila? *d'oh!*

tiba2 rase ngantok plak.. so i guess i'll continue later on this one.. enjoy reading anyway~ :)

another day of my life.

after all the hard works, pain, sacrifices and effort I've put into, now it comes to an end. i wish my life would be better soon. there's a wise man says, "we'll meet thousands of assholes before we found the right one." so i jez have to get along and go with the flow. meeting these assholes wasn't dat bad after all. it gives me the chance to know and understand people behavior. well, now i know why Allah created Heaven and Hell and there are levels in each of them. :D my mind hv been wandering around and often go astray. but now i'm back on track. thanx guys for all ur support and everything. guess i owe u guys a big one! *tunggu gaji ek?* hahahahaha~

btw, i've met a few new frens. n i had fun knowing 'em. but i guess it can never be compared to the old ones. well, "it takes a long time to create an old fren." n they called me "gila", "cacat", "terencat". selama aku ngan dorg aku da dgr several times da.. kalo makan taon, mgkn mmg akan termakbul doa dorg tu. *time kaseh ye kwn2!* >:( doa la bek2 sket.. ckpla cantik ke, kaya ke, hebat ke, kalo termakbul doa, xke korg gk yg dpt menumpang senang? haishhh.. :D

well, time's up. i hv to get back to work. *sigh* !-_- tapi masih lagi nekad utk menskip clz.. huhu~ esaimen je akan dihantar. ;)

fed up.

i'm trying so hard not to be damn -ve at dis early shiny day but i jez pissed off. i tried so hard to please him but he just cant see it. my mistakes always been brought up without considering things that i did to show my apologizes. n i think, i had enough. hati ni da penat. even salah die pon, aku je yg kena mengalah. i made mistakes n so did he. but how come i can forgive n forget n not him? i dun mind if he doesn't want to look after me, but i care for him.. last week, he was suspected for dengue n i asked him to go to d hospital for d follow up n he said that i'm annoying. if it is wrong for someone to care for her loved one, then i'm sorry. i didn't know that i shouldn't do dat.

nak webit!!!~~~ :D

oh! hahahaha~ sungguh lame tidak menjenguk dan merepek di blog sendiri.. huhu~ :D there's a stroy i wanna share.. semalam pegi IKEA besama Nihayah, mak, Hahn n Binky!!~~ went shopping for Nihayah's new house (and also return+exchange d faulty bulb I bought on the other day).. Sambil menghantar Binky went for grooming di Ikano.. for those who wanted to send their pets for grooming, The Pet Safari at Ikano is recommended. For more info, jez click the link of its website --> (http://www.thepetsafari.com.my/) For me it's quite cheap but this was my first time sending a pet for grooming.. it's a +-3 months old male rabbit.. they did the ear cleaning, nail clipping and also trim the paw fur (d dirty ones) plus they look after him for about 5 hours n it only cost RM20! okla kot.. tp Hahn kate, "org gunting rambut kat mamak pon xsampai 20heng.." kecohla lu!!~ lu potong rambut je.. ni siap grooming kot.. ceit! n since dat, i am soooooooo excited to buy a pet rabbit to be Binky's mate.. n i will name her Rico~ hahahahahaha~ so, sape2 ade jual or ade contact yg jual rabbit (bukan daging arnab hokey!), tlgla inform k? especially yg jual dgn harga berpatutan/murah.. kalo blh, nak la dwarf ke, angora ke.. sbnrnye tingin nak Holland Lop tp sgt mahal kot! :( gamba Binky akan diattach kemudian ok? nak gi curik2 amek gamba die dulu.. hehe~ :D

holiday?

ouh.. i wouldn't call this as a holiday, i suppose.. it's a HELLday!! hari2 menjadi bibik, mengemas bilik+rumah (someone else's mess!!!!) n hv to wash my sis's new house (alone! or maybe with hahn's help) tp still penat kot.. she's not going to do all d chores but keep babbling when people packed her things up (bungkus dlm plastik itam). i dun care! her stuff really hv to go out from this house!!~ muuuaaahahahahahahahahahaha~~~ >:D such a devil's laugh aite? but dat's me.. devil outside, angel inside~ (pasan!)

khamis nan permai (?!)

:) well, today is thursday.. the date? u can refer up there~ ade ura2 mengatakan result kua arini.. isk.. kecut perut aku cam mkn jeruk kelubi.. :* sem lepas terlalu byk menda yg jadi, terlalu byk esaimen yg kena wat, terlalu serabut perut+otak.. makanya, kite tunggu dan lihatla ape keputusan bg segala permasalahan itu ok? hahahahahahaha~

kalo arini kames, esok jumaat kn? jumaat pon hari yg aku tggu2.. nak balik!! brg2 dah half aku pack.. (excited gile kn?) huhu~ :D sebenarnye arini aku ade benda yg aku da plan nak wat.. tp akan aku rahsiakan sehinggalah perkara itu berlalu.. hahahahahaha~ :) (bgtau siap2, kantoi lah nanti~~) :P

blog block blog

setelah seberapa ketika tidak menyentuh papan kekunci untuk menaip di sini, hari ini bermulalah episod blog yang baru.. (nearly a week aite?) well, sepanjang seminggu tu, mmg macam2 benda yg terjadi.. normal lah.. dlm sehari or seminit pun blh jd macam2, inikan pulak seminggu..

apa yg aku nak cerita harini? pertama sekali pasal kazen aku kawen.. tak sangka kazen aku kawen ngan kakak kepada seorang kenalan aku.. oh! sungguh kecik dunia ni.. yg keduanya, masa aku "mengambil" cuti dari menulis di blog, aku ade jugak "bersiar2" di blog2 lain.. mcm2 ilmu dan pengetahuan yg dpt aku kutip sepanjang "perjalanan" aku tu.. salah satunya mengenai blogger cuba menjatuhkan sesama blogger, blogger yg tak blh menerima kutukan+kritikan daripada blogger yg lain.. hmmm.. macam2 yg terjadi kat dunia blog ni.. bagi aku, segala kutukan dan kritikan, mestilah diterima dgn hati dan fikiran yg terbuka.. mmgla tak semua yg org lain tegur tu betul dan tak semua jugak yg salah.. apa salahnya kalau kita muhasabah diri dan ambil masa utk berfikir? tak guna duit pun.. utk kebaikan diri sendiri dan bersama jugak.. bg aku jugak, kalo sorg je yg tegur perangai kita yg sebegitu rupa tak elok, mgkn die ada masalah dgn kita atau die yg bermasalah.. tp kalo dah ramai memperkatakan hal yg serupa, cuba selidik balik diri kita, berkemungkinan besar, kita yg bermasalah..

aku bukan nak berlagak menjadi baik kat sini.. tp ni utk renungan bersama.. bg aku, kalau seseorg tu nak menggelarkan diri sbg sahabat/kawan kpd individu yg lain, die mestilah berani menegur kesilapan yg sahabat/kawan die lakukan.. bkn dgn mendiamkan diri.. dan sbg org yg ditegur, kenalah terima dgn hati dan fikiran yg terbuka.. sbb benda tu utk kebaikan die jugak.. dan tlglah jgn sesekali menuduh org yg menegur tu dengki kat kite, sbb kalau betul die dengki, die tak kan ckp kat kite ttg keburukan kite tu tp dihebahkan kpd org lain.. jadi, renung2kanlah dan amalkan selagi tak menyelewengkan aqidah.. :)

p/s: this is a general topic/issue. siapa makan nasi, dia yang terasa kenyang. :D

a great weekend~ :D

hahahahahahaha~ :D setelah merehatkan diri selama 3 hari.. hmmm.. oh! btw, last saturday, i went to anep's convo.. sian plak nengok die cam tu.. da la jubah tu berat.. john anta ktorg then die lepak ngan kawan2 die.. so aku masuk la ngan sya.. oh! kat cni aku ade letak gamba time pegi konvo tu.. tp gamba yg last2 jela.. yg xde muka aku, xdela.. ;) credit to sya for d pics.. btw, time ni tgh ujan.. time snap2 ni ujan renyai2 so blh kontrol lg.. tp pstu ujan lebat gle!!~ belari2 sume org.. huhu~ =))

semalam niat nak carik suar utk anep tp last2, aku yg beli suar.. hahahahaha~ mmg la sgt jahanam.. siap dpt subsidi lg tu.. huhu~ :) oh! ktorg g kedai jual brg2 dr jepun.. cute2 brg die~ aku beli socks, pencil case n chopstik.. rm5 per item~ rambang mata gakla.. nsb bek anep lenguh+xlarat.. kalo x, mmg 7x tawaf la kedai tu.. (blh dpt hajah~) :D nt nak g ngan shera la.. shera kan ske menda2 camtu..