luv is a tactical game. :D

*wink! wink!* ;) aku cam nak gelak pun ade tgk hamster aku kat sebelah ni.. bg kuaci xputus2 die mkn.. mane la tak dem0k~ silap2 blh meletop pwot tu.. haishhhh.. !-_-

owh, bekenaan dgn title.. well, it is a tactical game cz u hv to know how to tackle ur opponent.. bg aku camtu la.. tak tawla btol ke tak.. tapi yg aku taw, menda2 ni mmg sgt leceh.. commitment tu sniri sgt leceh.. tapi kalo tak berani nak harung, takkan nak hidup sorg2 plak kan.. well, no pain no gain~~ :D

so after all and such, setelah membuat survey plus meminta pendapat org ramai, makanya telah sy menetapkan bahawa esok akan bermulanya perang dingin.. woooohooo~ mesti ade snow2 kan? btw, da nak winter ke? yela, bukan ape.. since bumi ni da menghadapi global warming, kalo aku isytihar perang dingin, kurang2 dingin la sket bumi ni~~ :P

hmmm.. tapi otak serabut gak nak menyudahkan esaimen yg melambak ni.. dgn presentation nye, test(is) nye, ngan submission of esaimens lg.. mmg ah blh meninggey.. da la lagi +-3minggu je lagi tinggal nak final.. hadoi..

otak: tlg la fokus.
minda+fikiran: tlg kembali ke tmpt asal.. jgn asek nak merayau je..
hati: tlg duk diam2. tetap sket pendirian tu..
fokus: meh sini nak tambat.. nanti ilang lagi..

!-_-

wake me up when september ends.

pls.. do wake me up when september ends.. sangat serabut, sangat tak tenteram, sangat marah, sangat bengang, sangat tak sabar dan semuanya sangatlah sangat.. *sigh* !-_- aku tau mmg sangat tak elok kalau asek mengeluh.. tapi tu je yg aku mampu nak buat buat masa ni.. he said he need his own time.. so i'm trying to give his own space to breathe.. tapi ni la yg jadi.. aku yg cam kucar kacir hidup.. maybe i should try to get a new hobby instead.. how to distract myself? pls help me cast my mind away from him~ pls!!! pretty pls~~~ :'( boleh tak sape2 tlg ajar cane nak hilangkan penyakit angau ni? serabut je menda2 cani.. *syuhh syyyuuhhhhhh!! tlg pegi!!* nape la die tak rase ape yg aku rase? susah kan jadi pompuan ni? emo lebih, perasaan pon nak lebih.. i think i'd better stop now before maken byk menda yg aku merapu tak tentu pasal.. sekian, selamat malam. :'(

mencabar atau tercabar?

title nak gempak je kan? ape ingat title buku/novel je ke blh gempak2? i want to have a cool title too~ :D huhu~ well, not much dat i could write right now.. tapi tiba2 ada sesuatu yg melintas di kotak fikiran.. "hidup ni sgt mencabar" but act, i'm not sure whether d life is really challenging or me who d one that challenged myself in my own life.. hmmm.. ayat tunggang tebalik kan? nak wat cane.. suka cakap tapii xpandai susun ayat.. jadi la cam aku ni.. haru biru (mungkin jugak haru hijau atau haru merah.. who knows) hidup ni.. *sigh*

tak kesah la.. pape pon i'm trying to enjoy d life that i'm living.. sounds lame aite? but dat's what i'm trying to do.. but i guess i'm doing things without thinking much.. or maybe i'll turn my life into sumkinda hell again? hmmmm.. *thinking+wondering*

bukannya aku tak boleh pk sniri.. silapnye jika anda pk sy ni sgt dependent. bila keadaan terdesak, aku blh jd berdikari.. cuma selama aku hidup kat atas muka bumi ni, aku terlalu berfikir yg aku sgt memerlukan org di sisi aku.. aku tak blh, tak cuba dan tak pernah nak cuba untuk hidup sendiri.. yela.. nanti aku nak cakap ngan sape.. aku ni da la suke pokpekpokpek.. nanti kalo duk sorg2, aku pokpekpokpek sorg2, xke org kate aku gila? *d'oh!*

tiba2 rase ngantok plak.. so i guess i'll continue later on this one.. enjoy reading anyway~ :)

another day of my life.

after all the hard works, pain, sacrifices and effort I've put into, now it comes to an end. i wish my life would be better soon. there's a wise man says, "we'll meet thousands of assholes before we found the right one." so i jez have to get along and go with the flow. meeting these assholes wasn't dat bad after all. it gives me the chance to know and understand people behavior. well, now i know why Allah created Heaven and Hell and there are levels in each of them. :D my mind hv been wandering around and often go astray. but now i'm back on track. thanx guys for all ur support and everything. guess i owe u guys a big one! *tunggu gaji ek?* hahahahaha~

btw, i've met a few new frens. n i had fun knowing 'em. but i guess it can never be compared to the old ones. well, "it takes a long time to create an old fren." n they called me "gila", "cacat", "terencat". selama aku ngan dorg aku da dgr several times da.. kalo makan taon, mgkn mmg akan termakbul doa dorg tu. *time kaseh ye kwn2!* >:( doa la bek2 sket.. ckpla cantik ke, kaya ke, hebat ke, kalo termakbul doa, xke korg gk yg dpt menumpang senang? haishhh.. :D

well, time's up. i hv to get back to work. *sigh* !-_- tapi masih lagi nekad utk menskip clz.. huhu~ esaimen je akan dihantar. ;)

fed up.

i'm trying so hard not to be damn -ve at dis early shiny day but i jez pissed off. i tried so hard to please him but he just cant see it. my mistakes always been brought up without considering things that i did to show my apologizes. n i think, i had enough. hati ni da penat. even salah die pon, aku je yg kena mengalah. i made mistakes n so did he. but how come i can forgive n forget n not him? i dun mind if he doesn't want to look after me, but i care for him.. last week, he was suspected for dengue n i asked him to go to d hospital for d follow up n he said that i'm annoying. if it is wrong for someone to care for her loved one, then i'm sorry. i didn't know that i shouldn't do dat.